Reside

It's so fucking frustrating thinking i'm moving on n then a week later or so, sometimes even days later, i go back to you again - to thinking about you, dreaming about you. Ik i shouldn't. N i know it's pointless. You n me could never be we even if you loved me the way you did before again. Cuz... it just would be un fair to you. Wouldn't be worth it. You'd be wasted...

N it hurts. Thinking n knowing all this n at the same time knowing your love's not the same n i cannot go back hurts. But it hurts more that i know i can't stop loving you.

Idk. Maybe i just need someone to show me what love n falling in love is really like. But i think my heart will not come my way. You seem to always be staying there.